my poem on depression

INSIDE YOU

 I’m coming to see you.
You can see me in the mirror.
Underneath your broken flesh.
Don’t be a fool you know where I am.
Hiding in the cobwebs and cracks of your heart.
I’ll take you over and make you mine.
I’ll start with the feelings and move over to your brain.
Exploring your mind and breaking the strings.
He wouldn’t be dead if you asked for some help.
I’m calling my friends: anger, guilt and some regret.
You think you can’t escape and that’s fine with me.
Little do you know how much could change.
If you just stop letting me in your brain.
Think harder you know my name.
Hi nice to meet you.
They call me depression.
I’m here to see you.
I’ll stay here too.

This is a poem i wrote about depression. It describes how Francis feels throughout the book. After his father's suicide, Francis begins to feel angry that his father died. Chapter fourteen is called replacement. which makes a lot of sense when you read the chapter because you realize Francis's mother begins to move on and starts dating. Francis had misunderstood the man his aunt had brought for dinner to their house as his aunt's boyfriend. He found it strange that his aunt could ever find a man. So he decides to call her up to congratulate her and ask her how they ever met. When he calls, his aunt clears up the confusion by saying she brought him to meet her sister (Francis's mom) and she thinks they both like each other. Upon hearing this Francis gets enraged.He decides to leave his house to go talk to Mr.D, who is the owner of deli delight, where Francis works. Before he leaves his little brother Luc, asks Francis if he got stung by a bee. Francis then in the book on pg.108 explains to us that Luc uses that to describe something that seems extremely awful to him. This shows us how upset he thought Francis was. Francis replies by saying "Not just a bee, a bumblebee.A seven-foot-tall monster bee!(Chalifour,2005,pg.108). By the end of the chapter its clear to us Francis feels his mother tried to replace his father. By chapter fifteen Francis feels guilty and regretful because on page 118 his mother tells him she asked George( the man she was dating) to leave. Francis blames himself for the pain he knows he caused his mother and regrets his decision. This relates to depression because Francis is not accepting the fact that everyone is beginning to move on from his father's suicide. He does not understand why he cannot move on from the suicide.Chapter fifteen is when Francis begins to reflect on how he is behaving and in the next few chapters decides to run away because he doesn't want to cause anymore pain then he thinks he is causing his family.The poem i wrote is the way i feel Francis feels about depression. Francis always words like "that old grief monster"(Chalifour,2005,pg.60). He describes his heart as"...this big ugly thing inside my chest actually hurt"(Chalifour,2005,pg.34). These words let us know that Francis is hurt. But Francis does not know what to call this. He mentions this when he says " i don't know if i was ashamed or afraid or angry or embarrassed"(Chalifour,2005,pg.50). I feel Francis does not understand he is going through depression. Or he feels if he admits he is depressed that will make him vulnerable and he wont be able to continue being strong for his family.